I want all of this to stop. I want to forget. I want to move on.

The most important thing to me right now is being strong. I want, so bad, to have my mind free of all worries. To just be.

But boy, have I been thinking too hard.

I want to give up. But I keep telling myself that it’s worth it.

I don’t want to speak. But I need someone to talk to.

I want to start anew. I want new experiences.

It is so easy to push people away, but so hard to bring them back. But why push people away?

I feel like people underestimate me, and don’t give me a chance. I don’t even give myself a chance. I’ve been too scared. I haven’t been strong.

Give me a chance. Look. Pay attention. Listen to me. Believe in me.

Try. For me.

And I swear you won’t be disappointed. You won’t underestimate me.

.. I have no words to explain these thoughts. This is it. Out in the open. Simple. Understandable.

- I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry.